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On last days of 2010, I have an interesting experience in Indonesia. Many Indonesians shout out loud on their social network accounts, “Garuda di dadaku – Garuda in my heart”. A symbol of the proudness amongst Indonesians. Where the euforia comes from? Nah, it is not for the Independence Day. Nor the National Awakening Day. Nor the Youth Pledge Day. Not even the Pancasila Sanctity Day. Sooo??!!

It is because of Indonesia’s National Soccer Team!

The euforia of being the winner candidate, was very huge. All of sudden, the National Jersey is being the most wanted thing. Many, many, many people wear that jersey. Quite “odd” as usually people wear other countries’ jerseys who have won world cups. Pathetically, the players become public figures in infotaiment mass media!!!

I always raise my eyebrow whenever sportmen and sportwomen put too much time on infotaiment things.True, that media is important to raise awareness, so that many people aware what have been achieved. Yet, it would not help to achieve the real goals! Well, unless the goal is to be popular!???!

The result?

We lost on the first match of the final. Regardless, the rotten tricks that the opponent’s supporters did, the team did not play with their best capabilities! I against those rotten tricks as I always consider things like that belong to those with lack of capabilities! Yet, I also unfavour with the idea to revenge. Simply because it would mean that we are just like them!

Anyway, the team suceeded to revenge on the second match. We won the match, yet not be the winner. The good thing is that the team did not give up easily! And also due to sportmanship of the supporters who did not take revenge.

Yet, the greatest thing is that, this time, almost all Indonesians go into one voice!  (more…)

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Today is the Indonesian Mothers’ Day. As always, many people in networking sites have proudly updated this as their statuses. It creates the hype of reminder and spirit of its importance. Indeed it is important. Being a mother means you have a profession without time to rest, a lifetime commitment. Unfortunately, regardless its huge responsibilities, there is no such training or certificate on how to be a good mother!

As many people say, “You are ready when you are (being mothers)”

 

Mother: Untiring hard-work and perseverance profession (Frank & Ernest - April 27, 1996)

Around a year ago, I have started to realize the reasons behind this Mothers’ Day. My prior university has published a book on it, titled as “The First Indonesian Women’s Congress of 1928“. It is the manuscripts of the conference in old version of Bahasa and English, which apparently I could not find in my home country.

Yes, that congress is the reason behind!

That back to 1928 -82 yeas ago- there was the congress by and for Indonesian Women. By Indonesian Women I am not talking only Javanesse Women. Can you imagine how great it was? Back to 1928, when the women empowerment has not being as famous as now. Indonesia even has not declared their independence from the colonialization. When traditional values and beliefs were strongly impact daily lives, as information were very limited.

Great, isn’t it?!!

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The cartoon by Michael Leunig illustrates very well about how we, humans, have tendency to focus on financial well-being. We ask it many times through many ways. We pray to ask for more money. We protest to the government to do their obligations to guarantee our welfares. We teach our descendants about how to earn much money. We nurture things for money [e.g: fishes and plants]. Many authors proclaim that they know the rules to get more money within ‘short time’. Some illegal opportunists use this as their base to lie to others through their non-existed business. Well, none of those actions is wrong, except the last one. Before we start, please note that I am also being the part of that group, I did, am doing and will do, especially the part of being a demonstrant of particular system.

Let’s talk about it a little bit further.

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Dalam satu bulan terakhir ini topik mengenai betapa masokis-nya orang-orang seperti saya muncul kembali. Konteks masokis disini adalah intelektual masokis. Apakah itu? Selengkapnya dapat dibaca di tulisan saya sebelumnya “intellectual-masochist”.

Sekilas kisahnya adalah, saya merasa telah menyusahkan diri sendiri. Menempuh pendidikan tingkat tinggi bukanlah suatu kewajiban bagi saya. Tidak pernah ada suatu kejadian yang mencetuskan bahwa S2 adalah wajib hukumnya. Tidak seperti beberapa rekan yang memang harus menempuh jalur tersebut demi karier di masa depan. Sementara, beberapa rekan, termasuk saya, jenjang S2 benar-benar suatu pilihan pribadi.

Mereka yang memilih dengan penuh kesadaran dan kebebasan ini bahkan mengambil risiko. Hal ini terkait dengan status pekerjaan. Saya misalnya. Pilihan ini diambil tanpa ada sponsor perusahaan atau organisasi apapun, kecuali tentunya penyandang dana. Di satu sisi, adalah hal yang menyenangkan karena tidak terikat kontrak dengan pihak mana pun. Bebas untuk memilih dan menentukan “jalan”. Namun di sisi lain, ketika persaingan untuk berkarya semakin padat, maka hal ini menjadi titik lemah. Menjelang akhir “perjuangan”, kecemasan ini semakin terasa seiring dengan pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang muncul.

Pertanyaan, apa rencana setelah lulus atau mau bekerja dimana setelah lulus semakin gencar ditanyakan. Dan pertanyaan serupa tapi tak sama itu dijawab dengan jawaban yang sejenis pula. Kisarannya tidak akan jauh dari “lihat nanti”, “tergantung siapa yang mau menampung” hingga “tau nih, pusing juga”. Jawaban tersebut akan diakhiri dengan pernyataan serupa: “jangan lupa informasinya ya”. Tidak ada kejelasan kemana hidup ini akan mengalir setelah fase pendidikan ini berakhir.

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Peanuts

Literacy is being an important thing amongst humankind for decades. It is being an indication of human civilization. You might still remember how the civilizations be divided into their artifacts including scripts and literatures. It is not only being a way to communicate with others but also to inherit the knowledge and wisdom to the descendants.

Currently, we do not need to carve the stones or to draw the images. We still can do those things, but we have other options. We have papers instead of stones or leaves. We have international [Latin] words which makes it possible to communicate across cultures. We even have computers to “transfer” the information to others electronically. I wouldn’t be surprised if one day we could do the telepathy.

Literacy consists of writing and reading. OEDC [Organisation for Economic Co-operation and Development] even puts mathematical and scientific as additions to reading literacy on their PISA assessment. PISA is an assessment to “monitor the outcomes of education systems…within a common international framework” [OECD, 2006]. The full reports can be obtained if you click this PISA 2003 or the Education at a glance 2008. Or else, just browse the whole OECD’s website as you can find the datasets and analyze it further if you like.

Now, let’s talk about the reading literacy. Reading is one of some of my hobbies, my favorite one. Yet, after years, I realized that I did not give many efforts for it. I did not commit to read a little but everyday which at the end pushed me to keep on buying books without finished all that I’ve bought. I heard from a friend that a lecturer committed to himself to read at least 30 minutes a day. He puts it as a relaxing activity after unbelievable demanding responsibilities.

I also realized that I do not have endurance to read [too] thick books. I envy those who can read many history or philosophy books that usually have minimum line spacing and tiny font sizes. I adore people who can understand completely the poem books, as I don’t. My books are about daily life including psychological books as some were my text books. I love some philosophic books but not pure philosophy as it would be hard for me to understand. I love books with what I called intelligent criticisms as they will “open my eyes”. But, I love to read!

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Peanuts
Baru saja saya menuntaskan “Mala”, buku kedua Tetralogi Dangdut karya Putu Wijaya. Awalnya saya hanya penasaran seperti apa karya beliau. Waktu itu memang sedang kambuh, ingin tahu karakter para sastrawan/wati Indonesia. Tidak, tidak untuk kepentingan apa pun selain egoisme. Ternyata saya “ketagihan”, jadilah menanti dengan tidak sabar terusannya.

Saya sudah membuat komentar mengenai buku ini di situs lain, namun yang ingin saya bagikan adalah Putu Wijaya mengungkapkan adanya kecenderungan untuk mempolitisasi manusia sebagai individu, termasuk ingatannya. Tentu hal ini juga terkait dengan faktor finansial, walau tidak yakin dapat disamakan dengan politik uang (bila ingin tahu lebih lanjut, dipersilahkan langsung membaca buku terkait).

Sejarah merupakan bagian kehidupan manusia, baik sebagai subyek, obyek ataupun keterangan. Alhasil, dengan konsistensi waktu yang tak terkalahkan itu, sekian banyak sejarah dilangsungkan. Dalam satu detik, kita dapat menemukan sekian banyak kisah. Permasalahannya adalah apakah kisah tersebut penting untuk dicermati lebih lanjut? Apakah kisah tersebut signifikan terhadap khalayak atau hanya segelintir? Apakah individu sebagai dalam kejadian tersebut memiliki daya jual?

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[tired]

These days, I learn more about fear and anxiousness.

For years, I have been taught that I have to reform fear and anxiousness into challenges. A challenge to not overestimate situation and keep moving.

As people say, life is like a wheel, the wheel-of-life. I perceived it like wheel-of-fortune, a prior famous TV show. There are times when we stay in the top, and times when we go down which hopefully not the lowest point. Does it consist luck? I do believe in that. We always need it. Though it is not like a sudden blessing which make us, in a blink, to be like Bill Gates. Luck is the supporter of efforts and such like an answer of prayers.

Since the nearly end of 2007, I terrified with my IELTS exam. It is more than an IELTS test. It would has great impact on my life. There was a following interview afterwards. Those related with my academic life. I proposed to continue my postgraduate degree overseas. If, I failed, another road is waiting for me. But, no one has willingness to get failed, though they believe in GOD’s way.

I want to continue my postgraduate since I finished my bachelor. That very moment, my Dad asked me whether I want to continue the degree directly. I said no. Main reason is I have to be certain which major that I’ll take. I still confused. Major that I love and I fit in is can be said not exist here. But the favorite here, is not really match with me. So, I declined the offering nervously. I was afraid that I will lick my words back. Commitment has been made.

Years passed. I applied for a few scholarships and failed in the first phase. Questioned of my own capabilities. I planned to work around two years but in fact I worked for almost three years. Anyway, I put 2008 as the proper year for me to continue my postgraduate degree. I feel good enough for the working and life experiences. Does it mean that I give-up for my dream to get my postgraduate degree overseas (related with the course which I think would be fit with me)? Nope. I won’t give up. I applied for scholarship, which actually I tried and failed in a year before. No matter what, I will go back to school. I made a few plans as back-up. Though the anxiousness keep accompany me.

Application sent.
Prayers on air.

And…
I’ve got it. It is a blessing.
If anything goes properly, I’ll go in mid of 2008.

I thought, that after I’ve got the scholarship, I can be more relax. The door is opening already. Just a courage to step-in, which I thought wouldn’t be hard because this is one of my dream. Yet, I was wrong. Other negative thinkings come in my mind. Does mean that I am not be thankful, does I?!

I ask whether I can passed the qualifications. How to fulfill the expectations.
What will I do afterwards. What kind of work and career path will I have.
Live in other country for 1.5 years. Different language, culture and even climate. And so on…

I have experience to stay in other country, but it was only for three months. And there were two other friends come together with me. *sigh*

I feel tired, really. I want to scold them out. Go out and never come back. Fear, anxiousness, and their siblings or cousins are not expected. There shouldn’t be any welcoming party for their existence. Can I? Guess I never really can. I tried but then, they never really go. They only transform themselves into other figures. This condition is getting worse because it is hard to satisfied humans with their greedy way-of-life.

Jeez…
Maybe, the option is not to eliminate them…
But to deal and jump it over.
“Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”

*I keep certain times to not posting here because my little brother was hospitalized for Dengue Haemorrhagic Fever for a week and a lot things to do…

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